What’s the word… wretched might describe it. I feel as bad as I did for the month post op. There seems to end to the pain, no end to the use of catheters, no end to this hell.
Is it infection or just irritation? Do I wait another 12 hours or take Amoxicillin now? Should I take painkillers too?
I probably shouldn’t write when I feel so demoralised. There are so many others worse off than me but right now the tears fall. The helpless free fall into the dark pit of pain overcomes me. I fail to see the light…. is there a light? Not even my loyal four legged could lift the burden of pain.
Tomorrow will come, will there be a light …………